Tell-Tale Signs

My mind's spinning in a day dream,

Of a three ring circus far far away,

Walking the tight rope 3 feet above the clouds,

This is where I belong, so this is where I'll stay,

If I could only reach normality,

But I have 42 reasons to never return,

My body's falling into temptation,

Contemplating leaving it all behind,

Never seen over the hill past the valley,

Excited to feel what these new times hold to find,

If I would only face probability,

But it's possibly the reason I'm spurned,

Mighty men trample the dust on grasshopper hearts,

Inactive and stagnant as I am, I feel I've played my part,

Finding the sunrise in my mindset,

Crescent moons surround our clauses,

Running down the neck I won't fret,

Wholely noted, a 16th for dramatic pauses,

The floorboards of a second floor studio hide the hidden parts of me,

And it's even more evident to see when you reach into this empty cavity,

Dissemble no more,

You'll get what you came for,

Tear up the planks of this writhing floor,

Stop the beating of this hideous art,

Utilitarian

Can you tell me why I put on this suit and tie,

To lose my brain cells to a nine to five,

To lose the rest of my life,

To a status quo that kills but never dies,

Can you tell me why I even care,

I've tried, but I'd never dare,

I hear what they're yelling outside my cell,

He's never going anywhere but here for fear,

I believe it, I believe all, I believe,

But you still haven't told me when,

When I can let go and when it ends,

I see your blinders, and I might be beside myself,

You may can, but I can't see who's beside me, myself,

I'm stepping out to create my own narrow path,

The resistance is the least,

Because it's just me,

I believe the world has a quota to meet every day,

To suck the soul and kill the spirits before we kneel to pray,

The teachers need the ignorant, and preachers need the sinners,

The government needs you, and I need the listeners,

I believe the world has sucked my soul and killed my spirit,

Honesty is something that is seldom said,

Because no one wants to hear it,

Just an idea that's good in theory,

Do you understand the handwave between a drunk and a barman,

Understand the stare between a cleric and a layman,

Dispise the kiss between a Jesus and a Judas,

Then you understand who I am,

You're the reason I put on this suit and tie,

Mixing stomach acids and lye,

With jumbled thoughts cluttering my brain,

Slipping down into my heart,

Now this is who I am,

Utilitarian,